Looking back to this blog, written five years ago, I realise something... I sold my soul. While I left my old job and no longer work with a bunch of pretentious peacocks, I did something shocking. I bought an iPhone. I may have an "excuse" (my work phone was an iPhone, so it was easier to replace it with another when it died), but the fact remains, I own an iPhone and I actually paid good money for this one.

I guess I am not really a career junkie anymore either. Don't get me wrong, I am still a Marketing Manager, I still love what I do, but I have other responsibilities now. Like a toddler. I guess I am not a twenty something either. Five years ago I saw myself as further in my career by now, but my priorities have changed and I have realised that health and happiness is more important than work.

See me smiling?

Ok, so I am a reasonably positive person, I see the lighter side of life, the opportunity in every challenge. But this time, I am just not so sure. I am used to loving my job and my colleagues. Now, I fight roadblocks every day and work with people who are rewarded for being lazy and catty.

Do I stay or do I go? On the one hand I love what I do, on the other I am hampered by a bunch of useless sods!

Next week I am meant to move, so that might help.

Its hard to soar like an eagle when you're surrounded by turkeys

Ok, so I have this workmate and I asked them to do something a month ago to get them involved in a project. They reluctantly took on one thing. Last week I chased them up on it (again) and it hadn't been done. This week, still hasn't been done. I told them it needed to be done last week.

Just so sick of slackers. Is it wrong that I want to see their failure in their own project to vindicate myself and reinforce my own thoughts that they are useless?

Fighting a realisation

Ok, so here is the thing. I love my job not my colleagues.

Don't get me wrong, there are some lovely people, but most of them are lazy peacocks. And by peacock I mean self centered show-offs who spend most of their time puffing out their chests.

I should have seen the writing on the wall on day one when I realised everyone had an iPhone. See iPhone's are the epitome of peacockdom - most people don't use the features, but they buy an iPhone at over $1,000 a pop to puff out their chests. This video embodies this attitude.

Anyway... my realisation... I am an elitist snob... But I don't want to join these lazy, idiotic peacocks... Does anyone have any tips?

Work hard, you'll do well... Yeah right!

Do you ever feel like you are climbing a hill at breakneck speed, but the ground beneath you is moss, so all you do is slide backwards?

I am increasingly coming to the realisation that as long as I put my time, effort and talents into making other people richer I am just wasting my energy for little return. It is time to start selling myself, making contacts and looking after my future, not someone else's. This is all very difficult when growing up in a country where being a tall poppy is frowned upon - but I think I have it in me!

I have options too - start my own business or move somewhere they pay better - either a country or company. But it takes time and planning.

There will be ups and downs and I fundamentally need to change some life long habits...

...join me on my journey to success as I turn moss to concrete.